Ever feel totally left out?

Like you don't get the joke? Like you're missing the big picture? That's how I feel on a constant basis. I'm a walking disease just waiting to infect everyone around me. My life is a big piece of shit covered in flies who can't mate because they are all mutated from the radiation. I am alone in a world where emotional contact is key to survival, and yet I survive. The internet provides little solace, but it must be enough because I keep on living.