The World of Warcraft blues and a good thing

This game World of Warcraft (WoW) really affects me strongly. I don't know if I can explain how I feel right now. I've been playing all day long. For the past 5 hours or so I've been in raids, which if you don't play means fighting in a very hard place with 9 (in this case) other people. It was my first time in one of the raids and it was really really difficult, and my brain just fried out. I put everything I had into it, and when we left that one I moved onto another one, albeit an easier one. An hour or 2 into it my brain just shut down. I lost focus and turned into this zombie just randomly clicking my party members and healing them. Along with healing it was also my job to be casting shackles on one of the mob (monster) we were fighting, which for those of you who don't know holds them in place and keeps them from attacking. Someone mentioned on voice chat "I think someone is supposed to be shackling this mob." I realized at that moment that I had completely zoned out into nothingness land. Before that not a single thought had crossed my mind. Just click and heal. Click. Heal. And I woke up, and realized it was time for me to log out.

For some reason I have this unhappy, almost angry feeling towards the game right now, like it's some kind of horrible addiction that's corrupting my mind. I mean my brain actually hurts right now. There's plenty of frustrating things that happen amongst the group too that just really get me going, and I'd love to rant about it but I don't think my brain can take it right now. I don't know, maybe it's time for another break.

On a positive note I talked an old friend online (via yahoo messenger which I just recently started using again) for the first time in years. It was really good to talk to her, and if it hadn't been for the WoW raids I could have talked to her longer, but I only had the short time between raids to take a break.

I really miss having friends and feeling comfortable around people.