Moving

I'm going to be moving soon so I figured I'd use this space to make a list of the crap I need to get before/when I do.

Need:
Microwave
Liquid hand soap
Laundry detergent
Dish soap
Food of all kinds
Basic living room furniture
Simple shelving
Toilet Paper
Paper Towels
Sponges
Vacuum cleaner
Cookbook(s)
Trash can(s)
Trash bags
Food storage containers
Cutting board
Broom and dustpan

Maybes:
Mattress
Lamps
Weights (dumbells)

Already have:
Eating utensils
Bedroom furniture
Desk
Computer
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Cooking utensils
Bar soap

I cannot wait to be away from everything I hate about this place.

Forgotten

Ever have all your friends forget your birthday? I did. Today. On my birthday. Now let me say I'm terrible with birthdays. I forget at least 3 of my friends birthdays every year. But two of my friends I always remember, and I talked to them both today. Neither one said anything. Luckily both my Mom and Dad remembered this year. I always forget my dad's though so I'm actually surprised he still bothers. Even at this moment I can't remember his birthday.
I'm 25 now and I have a terrible headache.
By the way, what's funny is this morning I forgot.

I have a pain in my mouth...

Yesterday my mouth was hurting pretty badly after I ate dinner and it was causing me a painful headache as well. I went to the dentist today and discovered my wisdom teeth have come in sideways.

Time to have them out...

I'm lonely...

I'm sad, I'm lonely and I desperately need to make a solid new connection with another human being. If I go much longer without a relatively consistent friend I don't know if I'll be able hold up.

Ever feel totally left out?

Like you don't get the joke? Like you're missing the big picture? That's how I feel on a constant basis. I'm a walking disease just waiting to infect everyone around me. My life is a big piece of shit covered in flies who can't mate because they are all mutated from the radiation. I am alone in a world where emotional contact is key to survival, and yet I survive. The internet provides little solace, but it must be enough because I keep on living.

Sick of it

I'm sick of this blog and the bullshit school posts and all that. I'm not going to do it anymore. No one reads it anyway.

I'm so mad at myself

I got way too drunk last night and now I feel like total shit and I don't want to do anything. I'm going to end up wasting the weekend because of that. FUCK! And I'm all irritable and I've already slept most of the day away. And this is my 100th post. But who fucking cares.

School: Semester 1, Day 20

I'm pretty drunk at the moment, so today's post is going to have to wait until tomorrow. I guess it's actually yesterday's post. Is going to have to wait until today. I didn't expect this to happen but I ended up drinking way too much. Something like 15 drinks tonight. Sigh... I'm dizzy. Tomorrow.

School: Semester 1, Day 19

In Trig today the teacher removed one of the sections that was supposed to be on Monday's test. So now not only are we a day behind, but also a whole extra section. She even said she's going to remove a section from the next test and put both those sections onto our final instead. This means the final is not only cumulative but will also contain the full sections missed on previous tests. Not to mention we are now currently 2 sections ahead of the test schedule because we pushed it back from today to Monday. Sigh...

I realized today that this Incidents in the Life of a Slave Girl book I'm reading for History class isn't so bad. It's certainly going to be easier to test on since it has a story, and some of it is actually interesting, albeit depressing.

I just finished writing my essay for Philosophy class, and I think it's pretty good. He was very specific today that he wants it right around 500 words, so I intentionally shortened things up and kept it brief. The thing is only one and a half pages long and 564 words. I think my conclusion is weak but I couldn't come up with anything better, and I don't really care. I don't think he'll care either, he doesn't seem nit-picky like that. I'm probably going to post the essay here, but I'm not sure when. It'll either be tomorrow after I turn it in, or the day I receive it back, which would likely be Monday.

Now it's time to study my History stuff. I have that test and also the Philosophy test tomorrow. With no Trig it's going to be a short day and an early start to the weekend. Woo hoo!

The Terrorist Penis

You have to check out this little story from the Witt and Wisdom blog. It's quite old (2003) but nonetheless hilarious...

My Penis May Be a Terrorist

School: Semester 1, Day 18

I forgot to mention that in my Trig class even though we won't be taking the test until Monday, we will be starting the new material tomorrow, the last day of class for this week. I do not like doing this. It leaves this weird sort of overlap feeling in my brain, a feeling like I might need to know that stuff on the test. I wish these fuckers would just suck it up and take the test on it's scheduled date.

Anyhow I'm now taking a break from studying/homework. I spent the first 3 hours doing 2 sections of Trig problems because I somehow managed to get myself one section behind the class in homework. I stopped doing the Trig assignments because I was completely burnt out, took a break for dinner, and then continued with Philosophy.

Today we were assigned an essay in which we are supposed to choose between Hard or Soft Determinism, Libertarianism or Frankfurt's "Deep Self" theory, all of which deal with causality, free will and moral responsibility. I have a problem with this. We haven't even covered Frankfurt yet! We're going to do that tomorrow, Thursday. The damn essay is due on Friday before the test. How am I supposed to make a decision on the subject without being fully informed. OK, so I read some of his writings on the subject in our book, and I found it to be so utterly confusing that I just discarded the whole idea and wrote the essay without even considering it. I already had my beliefs set anyway, and he said in class today that our own argument is what is important, not our knowledge of theirs. I'm considering posting it here when it's finished but I think that it might be a bit of a problem in case someone takes it and uses it for an essay in some other philosophy class. Am I morally responsible if a person chooses to take my work for his own? Hahaha. I crack myself up.

Anyway I still have a lot of History studying to do for THAT test Friday so it's back to the grind for me.

School: Semester 1, Day 17

I'm taking a break from hardcore History studying to post this, so I'm going to review the day and break down my test study habits.

Yet again my Trigonometry test has been pushed back from Thursday to Monday. This time it was based on a class vote on the teacher's offering to move to Monday if we wanted the extra time. I don't want the extra time. I want to relax all weekend. I'm going to relax anyway because this stuff is easy enough that I don't have to worry about it much. The good thing is it does take some load off of me this week since I have 2 other tests on Friday.

I'm studying for my History test by rewriting the things and people from my notes in a sort of double-column form and forcing myself to re-read all the notes and pick out what is important. Again there is no textbook so my notes are all I have. Well, and the internet. This type of studying feels very intense to me. It actually makes me kind of nauseous.

For Trig I'm just doing the homework problems. Nothing else is necessary.

For Philosophy my studying is less intensive, however I might need to do something like I do for History with all the handouts I've received and the readings from the book. So far I have just read over the handouts and highlighted them. This might be sufficient but I don't know since the amount of information seems to be much greater this time around.

This week sucks because I already feel exhausted and it's only Tuesday. My brain feels like mush.

School: Semester 1, Day 16

It was back to school today and a tough one for me. I was very tired this morning and struggled to stay focused and awake all day. I hope I can get better sleep tonight so it doesn't continue into tomorrow because I have a test Thursday in Trig and two test on Friday, History and Philosophy.

The History test should be about on par with the last one and I should be able to execute the same study pattern and come out just fine. The Trig test should be fairly easy as well but with little studying. The Philosophy test on the other hand is likely going to contain way more information than the last test: 4 more readings in the book and at least 4 more handouts than the previous unit, and in the same amount of time. It is going to be a rough test, but luckily we are having a quiz tomorrow so I should get an idea of how well I know the stuff so far.

I spent something like 6-7 hours studying/doing homework tonight. I think it's going be a long week.

The Big Electron

I was saddened this morning to find out that the great George Carlin had passed away of heart failure yesterday at the age of 71. He was my all-time favorite stand up comedian. I first heard his routine Jammin' in New York on HBO when I was about 9 or 10 years old, and I fell in love with him. I have since seen all of his HBO specials and enjoyed every minute.

Words may have been his greatest passion, so I'll end this post with some of his - the last bit of Jammin' in New York:

"I think we’re part of a greater wisdom than we will ever understand. A higher order. Call it what you want. Know what I call it? The Big Electron. The Big Electron...whoooa. Whoooa. Whoooa. It doesn’t punish, it doesn’t reward, it doesn’t judge at all. It just is. And so are we. For a little while."

Take care out there George.

Special Thanks

I want to thank dbkundalini from Pimp My Skivvies for linking to and promoting my head-shaving post on his blog. It's my first link to the blog and my first point of authority on technorati. Feels good...

Anyway, check out his blog, he posts about politics, blogs he likes and some personal stuff too.

Grrr...

I got pretty drunk Friday night and I'm irritable as fucking hell today so I've come to decision that I'm not going to drink anymore. I haven't been this irritable for over one year. It doesn't help that my Battlegroup in WoW sucks ASS at battlegrounds. It took 5 tries to win Warsong Gulch. It's so damn frustrating.

And let me ask you this... Why is it that half the fucking videos on youtube don't load? Answer that for me please? I fucking hate it so much. IT'S THE MOST FRUSTRATING THING EVER! Ok...maybe not the most frustrating. But it's up there, damnit.

I feel like I'm all over the place. I better shower and just lie down. I hate feeling unstable like this...

School: Semester 1, Day 15

It was a leisurely day at school today, easy history and interesting Philosophy. I don't have much time because I'm going out so more later.

A story for you

I was sitting in the hallway a ways down from my Philosophy room doing some studying before class. People were consistently walking by, just one or two at a time, going out the doors to my left, up the stairs or into the Philosophy department behind me, or down the hallway to my right, for the first 25 minutes or so that I was there. A few more minutes passed and I realized that quiet had taken over. I looked to my left and to my right and saw no one. Even outside the doors I saw no one in the quad. The thought that entered my head was "You know, I could be naked right now and no one would know about it."

School: Semester 1, Day 14

In history class today my professor called me Adam. I corrected him the first time, which was the day he handed back the 1st test. Apparently it didn't stick. My handwriting is bad, but I can't see misreading a "d". There is definitely no "d". The letters all clearly have no top except the "A". Sigh...

In any case tomorrow is Friday and the last day. I won't have a test in Philosophy or History until the 27th, which is a week from Friday. I'm not sure when the Trig test will be, the teacher hasn't said. I expected it to be Monday but she didn't say anything in class today, so if she springs a test then she's gonna have a bunch of mad students. I expect she won't though, and that the test will be Tuesday.

I started reading "Incidents in the Life of a Slave Girl" and finished the first three chapters. It's slightly more interesting than the "Everyday Life..." book and has less information per page, but it's definitely still quite boring. Hopefully it gets more interesting.

Philosophy on the other hand is getting quite interesting. We're reading Descartes' Meditations 1 and 2 on Mind-Body dualism and arguments against his philosophy. It's all pretty interesting. I'm planning on writing about my own ideas/thoughts soon and I'll post it here. Maybe it'll actually be worthwhile for people to come read, unlike the rest of this crap.

School: Semester 1, Day 13

The History test was quite tough, however I checked my score online after classes and I came out with a 63.5/75, an 85%, which in my opinion is not too shabby for how much information is contained in that book. The best part is I'm done with tests until Monday, so I took today as kind of an easy night as far as homework goes. Going to start on the new book tomorrow. I'm tired as hell.

A haircut!

I got my head shaved today, because I was sick and tired of dealing with stupid hair. By the way the top hair has been that length for months even though the back keeps growing. Sigh...

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School: Semester 1, Day 12

I almost forgot to post today. I got my Trig exam back with a 90%. I was a little disappointed at all the stupid mistakes I made, but that happens to me every time I take a math test no matter how many times I check my answers. I got a 97% on my philosophy test, on which I made more stupid mistakes. I actually knew the answers to the ones I got wrong, and I can't believe I answered them how I did. Anyhow all is good really except I have my book test tomorrow and I just can't bear to study it. I spent a little time on it today but I'm not busting my ass for this test like I did the other one because there is just way too much information to take in here. I mean this book is just like a big long list of things. This book probably contains thousands of items, none of which follow any storyline or even really a logical progression. Even chronologically the book is all skewed. I'm kind of expecting this test to be less difficult for this reason. He can't possibly expect us to know EVERYTHING. At least that's what I'm hoping.

School: Semester 1, Day 11

Good news! I got a 99.5% on my History exam. I never would have a guessed that. I actually got a 24/25 on the essay. Boy was I amazed when I checked online this morning, and then again when I received it back. Yay!

Took the Trig exam today, it was pretty easy. I know I made at least one stupid mistake - I assumed an answer and later realized it was incorrect, at least I'm pretty sure it was. I'm confident I did well on it.

I haven't received the Philosophy exam back yet (tomorrow), but he did hand back the quiz we took, on which I got a 100%. Yay again!

So far I've got nearly perfect scores in all classes. We'll see what happens as this week goes on - Will receive the Trig test back sometime this week and also take the History book test Wednesday. I'm really having trouble putting forth the effort to study for it, and I find it strange how day to day my ability to focus on school and drive myself to do the work changes dramatically. In general I'm just feeling pooped in the head and I'm really quite tired. In fact I could probably just fall asleep.

Crazy weird dream...

It started with me pulling out of the gas station up the street lighting up a cigarette and taking a drag. It felt very real, and I remember thinking, "What the fuck are you doing?" because I quit smoking in November 2007. I think then I realized it was a dream, but that feeling passed and the dream changed locations. It's very jumpy from here on. I remember being somewhere quite foreign, where the buildings were falling apart, abandoned. It was desert-like. I was with two or three other people and we were walking down the sand covered street. Some buildings were still standing and were occupied by many people partying, and myself and the people I was with were making our way through the crowd, but the place just kept continuing on. The walls were covered with textual graffiti, presumably the writings of the partyers. I was smoking a cigarette throughout this. Somehow I ended up with a very large bag of cocaine, and all of a sudden I was in my old apartment, where I lived before this, in my room and at my desk. I took a large scoop of coke out with my index finger, held it up to my nose, inhaled it and put the rest in my mouth. I then tied the bag up and remember thinking that it really was a lot of cocaine. I put it in the drawer and it's fuzzy but I believe I went to bed and seconds later I woke up (still in the dream), and it seemed like a whole night had passed. I checked the drawer and the cocaine was gone, and I was quite puzzled. That's when I actually woke up. Weird huh?

School: Semester 1, Day 10

Just got back from school, I totally nailed my Philosophy exam, it was pretty easy. Now the History exam was another story. The multiple choice was easy, but the essay kicked my ass. I just didn't have that much knowledge of the information about the three topics he gave us to choose from. But even if I get 0 on the final, which I won't, I imagine I'll get a 10/25 or so, I'll proably come away with something like an 85%, which is fine by me. I'm so relieved to be done with it I'm going to play WoW for the rest of the day.

Intense study

I just had to break myself out of this incredibly intense moment of studying. I was starting to get dizzy! Just going to take a second and relax. Deep breaths. Damn it's hot in here...

I definitely cut it too close with this one. It's late now and I'm tired and I sure don't know this as well as I'd like to. I still have clothes in the dryer. Damnit...

School: Semester 1, Day 9

In History today he crammed the last little bit of information into our heads before the test tomorrow. Everything so far is fair game: From Columbus in 1492 to the beginning of the American Revolution in 1775.

Trig sucked big ass today because we had a substitute and boy was he ever a bad teacher. He went from this super simple example to one that was really complex, and I was just like "Der, what?" And he spent way too much time on the same type of problem after that. Also, his voice was really annoying.

We took the quiz in Philosophy, and went over the answers in class. I'm 99% sure I got all of the questions right, whew! If the test is like the quiz I will be just fine. I can't tell you how relieved I was. I'm still nervous as hell but it means I can focus nearly all of my studying tonight on History, since it will likely be considerably more difficult, and I will have the hour and a half before Philosophy free to study for the test since I don't have Trig on Fridays.

I'm currently kind of re-copying my history notes into a kind of table form in order to reinforce the information. I don't know if it's working, but I'm only halfway done and there really is A LOT of information here. My brain is just saturated with information and is kind of unstable at the moment. Sigh, this is tough.



I'm going to get back to it now. Wish me luck!

School: Semester 1, Day 8

We're working our way up to the Revolution in American History. Almost there now. I don't know how close we'll get before the first test on Friday, but I know that we already have so much information to study for the test that it's just overwhelming really. And then next Wednesday we have another test on the book I've been reading.

The Trig test on Monday is going to be total cake.

Philosophy might be another story. There's good news and bad news. Tomorrow, Thursday, we're going to have a quiz. The quiz will cover everything we've covered so far, and so will the test on Friday. I guess it's like a pretest. Problem is it's one day before the test. At least I'll have some idea of what he's expecting.

In other paranoia, I'm apprehensive about wearing my Ween shirt to school. I don't want to attract that much attention to myself, although it will likely be good attention, like someone telling me they also like Ween. I don't know what I'm going to do yet.

School: Semester 1, Day 7

Well we are behind in Trig so the test has been pushed back until Monday, meaning my first test this semester will be 9:30 am Friday in History, sigh. It's ok, I think I'm going to do well. I spent some time looking back over my lecture notes today and I'm pretty confident already in what I know, although I still have a lot to cover before Friday.



As far as Philosophy goes I'm thinking a majority of this test is going to cover the logic section of this unit, which is the section we're covering now. The first part didn't seem to have enough concrete information to really be tested on much of it, apart from definitions of a few branches of philosophy, and the word philosophy itself.

In other news, a House of Representatives clerk is currently reading Kucinich's resolution to impeach President Bush. This poor guy is definitely not a trained speaker, and keeps stumbling over words and stopping up. Kucinich flowed right through and it took him nearly 5 hours to complete!

I'm moderately to highly lactose intolerant, and I just couldn't help but eat some ice cream tonight. Oh it was so good, but now I can already tell I'm going to be having some diarrhea later. It was worth it though.

I'm considering separating my normal posts from the school posts. I think I'll do that from now on.

School: Semester 1, Day 6

I'm already starting to hate doing homework. I'm feeling just totally exhausted in general, and I must be stressed and nervous during the day because I was clenching my jaw non-stop all day today. I'm going to have my first exam on Thursday in Trig, followed by 2 exams Friday in History and Philosophy. I'm just scared I won't be prepared enough, but I can't seem to drive myself to spend all night everyday studying. I probably shouldn't be studying that much, and I'm not, but I'm afraid I'm not doing enough. Sigh...at least I'm sleeping pretty well. I must be so exhausted my brain just can't keep me up like it used to.

On a different note, Dennis Kucinich introduced a resolution to impeach President George W. Bush tonight in the House of Representatives. I saw bits and pieces on C-SPAN as it happened, but here's about the first 5 minutes...



I'm realizing now that he started talking at about 7:13 eastern time and continued until 11 pm eastern. That's a hell of a long time to speak without stopping. By the way did you notice all the asshole congressmen bail out as soon as he started talking?

The first return

Well it's back to school tomorrow, and I think I'm ready. I can't wait to get this semester overwith and start next semester. I signed up for classes today and I'm taking Intro to psychology, intro to cultural anthropology, calculus 1 and art appreciation. I want to get all those prereqs. out of the way so I can transfer to a university and get down to the nitty gritty. It's late now, but I forgot I had clothes in the dryer and I have to finish them tonight, plus my hair is still wet. If I go to bed like this I'll wake up looking like someone hit the back of my head with a frying pan.

I just did a little research on that Autoball thing, but it doesn't appear to have a website, or maybe it isn't really called Autoball. But that guy who won, Stefan Raab is a German entertainer of some kind, so it seems to me like it might not be a permanent sport. It appears he also invented wok racing...



More to come on this...

Autoball: I can't belive this is real

I don't have time to research this now, but I'm going to, because this is way fucking cool. Watch this.

Why do I do this?

I'm just thinking that nobody fucking reads this. Not one person. Any visits I get are because someone searches for "Julia Nunes." Actually, the top search result is "International Feel Sorry for Yourself Day" then Julia and then, and this is my favorite, "how to relax and poop." I mean that's just awesome! I'm the 3rd result listed if you search for that on google. According to google analytics I've had 28 unique visitors to the blog since I started it April 17th. So why do I do it? I don't really expect people to read this, but I kind of wish people would. If I started making youtube videos I'd definitely get more blog hits since it's listed on my channel page. Anyway I dunno, maybe I just need to get stuff out, so I do it here.

I think I'm going to get my head shaved again.

Long weekend

Well this has already felt like a long weekend for some reason. It feels like it should be going back to school tomorrow, but luckily I'm not. I've been pretty lax about doing my homework so far, although I did get some done, and I really need to get a lot done tomorrow to make sure I'm keeping up the pace. Sigh...this damn book is just so fucking boring to me. I hate history.

In other news two of my old friends are in town and I got to hang out with them tonight, and I had a really good time. Despite this fact, I still feel like I am just really unable to connect with people anymore. Even with these guys, who are good old friends, I'm just feel like I'm not making a good connection like I used to. What's strange is that they don't seem any different in that respect, and they don't act like I'm any different in that respect either, so why do I feel that way? I also noticed how hard it is to keep myself from letting the depressed attitude come out strong and to keep from dwelling on negative things. Even though I feel like I badly need to I can't just go dumping all this crap on these guys. How depressing would that be?

My dad posted photos from my most recent trip to Cali. You can find them here at his flickr site.

Phil is gone...

sXephil appears to have ended his long running Phillip de Franco Show on youtube. I'm not certain he's totally serious, or that he doesn't have something up his sleeve (hint from his website), but I will definitely miss him if he really goes. He is currently the 11th most subscribed channel on youtube with over 135,199 subscribers. (Note: When I checked maybe 4 hours ago he had around 134,000 meaning he has gained around 1000 subscribers in that time.)



Bye Phil. Take care and good luck!

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Visit his twitter.
Visit his personal youtube channel.

School: Semester 1, Day 5

Well I made it through the first week, albeit with my brain only partially intact. I'm taking the night off from schoolwork, and am going to pick it up again tomorrow for a while and also on sunday.

My History teacher, who has been cramming so much lecture into each class period, let us go over 15 minutes early today, leaving me 2 hours until Philosophy, since I don't have Trig on fridays. During that time I got my 2 chapters reading done, which was sweet.

In Philosophy we started on Logic today, and spent all day on the deductive branch. I already know all about it from the Formal Logic class I took back in 2001-02, so I'm set for this section, at least what I can remember. Besides that I'm still unsure what we're actually gonna be tested on next friday. Suspense!

Happy Birthday!

I found this a few minutes ago and just had to share it. Even though no one reads this. It comes from youtube user waverlyflams.



By the way nothing happened.

Yay for tornadoes!

I just got home from school and every county in a line southwest of here currently has a tornado warning, and the storms are moving northeast. I'm sure we will shortly have a tornado warning as well. Exciting. I'm taking my schoolbooks, digital camera and camcorder and all my personal effects downstairs if something happens.

School: Semester 1, Day 4

Today I am feeling totally fried in the head from knowledge being constantly pounded into it. Luckily I was well caught up today before school and it turned out to be light homework-wise so I spent most of the night playing WoW. It was kind of draining itself though so I'm really tired now. I'm gonna take a shower and hit the bed.

School: Semester 1, Day 3

I noticed today that there is one gorgeous girl in each of my classes. There are quite a few hot girls in each, but only one that is really gorgeous. Now that I think of it there is only one ugly girl in each as well. There's a few mediocre ones as well of course. Sigh...I'm lonely.

I'm reading and taking notes on 2 chapters per day in Everyday Life in Early America. I have 9 chapters left, and I'm sure every one of them will be as excruciating as the last. Just kidding, it's not really that bad. But if I don't give myself a concrete plan on homework when it's a big assignment like this one I won't get it done. I also solved my issues with distraction by not doing my homework at the desk where my computer is, and instead turning myself around and putting my feet on the bed and my books on my lap. The different perspective solved the problem.

As far as Trig goes I actually hit kind of a wall today. I just couldn't for the life of me figure out this problem, so I'm going to have to ask about it tomorrow.

I'm still concerned about Philosophy as far as what we're going to be tested on and what the teacher expects of us. On ratemyteachers.com people said his tests were hard, but I'm really not sure how difficult they could possibly be because in class he really gives minimal hard information besides what's on the handout.

I shaved!

That picture is my new icon on flickr.

I'm planning to rework the banner when I get some time. I already have the idea so now it's just getting it done.

FUCK! I forgot what the new banner text was gonna be.

Wow...boring...

School: Semester 1, Day 2

My schedule each day goes like this: American History, Trigonometry, Intro to Philosophy. It's like: Concrete, concrete, abstract. Philosophy is the perfect way to end the day, it allows my brain to run off and go in new directions never previously explored.

Today was good. I'm getting into the school groove now, and have figured out that I can occupy the 15 minutes between classes with reading the book required for my history class. If I read 2 chapters per day I'll be done in 1 week and will have nearly one week leftover before the test. I'm also taking what might be excessive notes on the book in order to hopefully get a better score on the test when it comes.

Trig is easy so far. I'm having no problems understanding as of yet, which is great. This class is essentially a non-issue.

Philosophy is pretty awesome so far. I'm not entirely clear what is expected yet though, and am afraid I might not be studying enough or the right things. I guess time will tell.

New word: Obstreperous

Ok so today's new word comes courtesy of my new school book Everyday Life in Early America, and it's Obstreperous. I saw that and immediately said out loud, "What the fuck is that?"

adj.
1. Noisily and stubbornly defiant.
2. Aggressively boisterous.

Definition courtesy of thefreedictionary.com

After I read the first chapter of this book I calmed down and realized it wasn't so bad. I should be able to read it in time without a problem, the test is another story, but we'll see how it goes.

Distraction

I'm finding myself so easily distracted when trying to study. My mind wanders off and I daydream for minutes at a time until I realize what is happening and have to go back and reread whole pages because I actually absorbed none of it. Or I go to look up a word on the internet and I can't help but click the youtube button on my bookmarks toolbar and get lost in videos for 30 minutes. Sigh...

I already hate school.

Now I remember why I never wanted to continue in school in the first place. My bullshit american history teacher has provided us with no textbook. Instead he is doing everything by lecture and we will be tested on that, which is fine, except we are also going to be tested on the full text of 2 books, which are historical in nature but are certainly not textbooks. This is only a 6 week course and I have to study not only all of his lecture notes, but also the entirety of both these "novels" which is over 450 pages. Fuck that dude. It's only 6 weeks. If I wanted to speed read full books I would have taken an english class.

The books are:
Incidents in the Life of a Slave Girl by Harriet Jacobs
Everyday Life in Early American by David Freeman Hawke

He also continually mentions that we should go to answers.com for any mor detailed history questions we might have, including word definitions. I have nothing wrong with using the internet for research, and I'm sure all the questions could be answered there, however as a teacher I can't believe he wouldn't give us all the same concrete resource, like a fucking textbook, like a fucking normal class.

My other classes are gonna be ok. Trig is good, and will be easy. I know a lot of it already, or just need refreshing. Philosophy looks to be a pretty laid back course, so I think it should be no problem. Plus it's interesting. I fucking hate history.

Back!

I'm back from KC and I had a good time there. We visited the World War I memorial there, and it was pretty interesting. Lots of cool weapons, and a neat little section with first aid stuff.
I'm starting school tomorrow and I'm nervous as hell. I'm also feeling pretty exhausted, so I'm gonna head to bed.

Off to KC

I'm heading to Kansas City today for the weekend to visit my buddy there. Probably won't post while I'm gone, but I'll try to take pictures. I just want to relax and take it easy this weekend. I'm pretty damn stressed out over school and I just need to take a breather from home. Hey I'll probably even get drunk for once!

Almost a mile!

So I started my run of with 0.6 miles without stopping to walk, I finished it with 0.3 miles running, which could have been longer but I started too close to my stopping point, and I walked the rest of the 2 miles. Total running nearly 1 mile. I'm so excited! But boy are my legs tired...

I remember!

I was going to say that I think it's time for a name change. I'm probably going to keep the web address but I think it's time to change the name and logo/banner. I don't know to what yet but I'm sure it will come to me.

I got my school books today. They were nearly $200 used. I guess I could have bought them online but I waited too long to do that really.

School soon...

I start school on Monday and I'm fucking scared. I don't wanna go to school, mommy! Monday begins 4 years of study. I keep trying to look at it like that but I can't help it. It's totally daunting. The problem is I've been idle for too long and I haven't been social for a long time. Fuck... It's gonna suck. At least at first. Afterwards it might be better. I dunno.

I cannot get Pork and Beans by Weezer out of my head. I've literally been thinking the song for days.



I had something else to talk about but I forgot. I'm tired.

Midlife crisis? Not yet...

This video from youtuber mickmusing on the 5oldgays channel was really helpful to me, even though he is talking about midlife crisis, I found a bunch of the stuff he said to be quite interesting and helpful. Check it out.

Manual confusion

Has it ever happened to you that you forget how you normally do something? Yesterday I pulled my toothbrush and toothpaste out of the medicine cabinet and something went wrong. I just couldn't seem to figure out the way I normally hold them. Usually I hold one in each hand, unscrew the toothpaste cap with the brush hand, squeeze it on, replace the cap and put the paste back in the cabinet. I normally don't have to think about it all; I just do it. For some reason yesterday I just failed miserably. I had to set the brush down in order to unscrew the cap, put it down and pick up the brush, squeeze the paste on and reverse. How frustrating!

More progress!

So today I was actually able to run 0.4 miles (according to google) without stopping to walk, and total running distance was 0.7 miles. I'm very happy with these results, especially since I didn't run or walk at all the past 2 days.

By the way, this guy frezned from Youtube is awesome. He's happy and friendly and just awesome, and I think he might be my new favorite youtuber! Watch!

The World of Warcraft blues and a good thing

This game World of Warcraft (WoW) really affects me strongly. I don't know if I can explain how I feel right now. I've been playing all day long. For the past 5 hours or so I've been in raids, which if you don't play means fighting in a very hard place with 9 (in this case) other people. It was my first time in one of the raids and it was really really difficult, and my brain just fried out. I put everything I had into it, and when we left that one I moved onto another one, albeit an easier one. An hour or 2 into it my brain just shut down. I lost focus and turned into this zombie just randomly clicking my party members and healing them. Along with healing it was also my job to be casting shackles on one of the mob (monster) we were fighting, which for those of you who don't know holds them in place and keeps them from attacking. Someone mentioned on voice chat "I think someone is supposed to be shackling this mob." I realized at that moment that I had completely zoned out into nothingness land. Before that not a single thought had crossed my mind. Just click and heal. Click. Heal. And I woke up, and realized it was time for me to log out.

For some reason I have this unhappy, almost angry feeling towards the game right now, like it's some kind of horrible addiction that's corrupting my mind. I mean my brain actually hurts right now. There's plenty of frustrating things that happen amongst the group too that just really get me going, and I'd love to rant about it but I don't think my brain can take it right now. I don't know, maybe it's time for another break.

On a positive note I talked an old friend online (via yahoo messenger which I just recently started using again) for the first time in years. It was really good to talk to her, and if it hadn't been for the WoW raids I could have talked to her longer, but I only had the short time between raids to take a break.

I really miss having friends and feeling comfortable around people.

Progress!

It's been almost a week since my first walk/run thing, and today's walk/run... Ok wait. Let's just call it a run, shall we? Today's run was the best yet. I was able to run longer and more often than all previous runs. I noticed today that my legs are no longer whats keeping me from running longer, it's my lungs. I just can't keep it up long enough, so thats the next step. I have to catch my lungs up to my legs, and beat the lactic acid build up.

New word: Internecine

This word comes from Entertainment Weekly's review of the HBO movie Recount, which honestly I couldn't care less about, but it's something to read in the bathroom.

Courtesy of thefreedictionary.com, the definition is:
adj.
1. Of or relating to struggle within a nation, organization, or group.
2. Mutually destructive; ruinous or fatal to both sides.
3. Characterized by bloodshed or carnage.

It's definitely a good word to describe the current presidential primary race.

And by the way, I cannot express how fucking pissed I am that 75% of this issue is about Sex and the City. I do not enjoy this show, and could not care less about it, and the last thing I'll do is read any of that bullshit. Anybody else? No? Am I the only one that doesn't watch it? Sigh... I just don't get it. I really don't think it's that good. I tried watching it. I really did. I got nothing from it. They're not even attractive enough to keep me interested. At least Tila Tequila and all the lesbians are fucking sexy...

passive "aggressive"

I just found 2 of the coolest websites I have ever seen.

One is The "Blog" of "Unnecessary" Quotation Marks, which I discovered by reading blogger.com's newest blogger buzz post. It's full of submitted photos of signs with odd, incorrect, or just plain unnecessary quotation marks, and is really quite hilarious.

When I followed a link within "the blog mentioned above" I found passive-aggresive notes, another site with submitted photos, this time of notes people leave for other people, and they are also just freaking hilarious.

I've just noticed on the sidebar of the quotation marks page there's a whole list of links to sites just like that one with different subjects. Can't wait to check them out.

By the way, this is my 50th post. Yay!

Selfishness

I have all these ideas floating around in my head right now, and they keep just briefly coming into focus and its not long enough for me to get something concrete and cohesive down in this blog entry. So...I dunno.

I'm just feeling weird tonight. I feel like I might be at some kind of a weird crossroads in my life. I feel like I've come a long way in the past couple of years, mostly in the last year, and I'm headed on a good path. Everything is going pretty well. Behind me is of course where I came from, and I do not ever want to go back there. That's not something I would have said 6 months ago. 6 months ago I was TRYING to go back. I felt like I had changed in some bad way, and that I needed to go back to who I was a long time ago, during or even before high school. But it turns out that isn't the case, at least that's how I feel at the moment. I'm finally starting to think that I've done something right. I took my life and steered it the way I wanted it to go.

The problem is that in order to accomplish this change I had to sever a lot of connections with people. I even burned a bridge. At least one. Basically I had to become selfish. See, I used to pride myself on being selfless. It was my goal to take away people's pain, and the only way to do that is to take it and make it your own. I used to mediate my friends. I was their middle man, the one who solved all the group's problems and all the individual's problems. I took their secrets, kept them private and gave them my word. I took their pain, sadness and anger for my own and gave them my comfort, happiness and compassion. It destroyed me. My soul was empty. I had nothing left to give, and in order to start getting it back I had to break the chain. I had to remove myself from the middle man position, and I did so. Unfortunately I also felt the need to reveal one particularly big secret. In doing so I put the final nail in the coffin of a failing relationship, and at the same time lost a friend. Since then I have been unable to have the empathy for other people that I so enjoyed. It's no longer possible for me to feel for somebody else. That was the price I had to pay for breaking that trust.

See this is where the problem comes in. Although I'm in a better position than I was some years ago, I can't shake the selfishness that was required to get me here and out of that hole. I'm afraid this is going to end up hurting me even more in the long run. I'm starting school in 2-3 weeks and I'm not sure if I'm going to be able deal with all the new people.

I'm not sure but I might not be able to feel anything at all.

I have to stop this here.

New word: Waffle

I've just learned, thanks to seanbedlam's use of it in this secretnaughtybedlam video, a new (to me anyway) definition of the word "waffle" courtesy of thefreedictionary.com:

Verb: to speak or write in a vague and wordy manner

Thanks seanbedlam!

Improving my vocabulary through Youtube

Through a comment to a video on Youtube I learned a new word today. The word is "twunt". Say it with me now: TWUNT. T-w-u-n-t. Awesome. Combination of twat and cunt. Its just beautiful. I suppose you could invert it and say "cwat" as well, but I don't think it's as good; It just doesn't have the same punch.

The video was one of Youtuber seanbedlam's alternate channel secretnaughtybedlam, on which he makes 10 minute, uncut, stream of consciousness videos about all manner of subjects.

Pardon the interruption, but I just noticed that I have yet again stayed up way too late. I'm going to bed.

No pain no gain

When I woke up this morning I was pretty sore, but it wasn't too bad once I got up and moving. So I went for another "run" today, and I could definitely feel the burn. When I got back I could barely stand. I just got out of a nice hot bath, and I feel pretty decent. My legs are totally floppy and a little sore though. I am pretty sure I'm going to be sore as hell tomorrow, which means I'll be doing light, if any, walking tomorrow.

Yay for exercise!

Today I went for a run for the first time since high school (which means it's been about seven years). And really, it wasn't a run. It was more like a walk with some running involved. But I'm still gonna call it a run, mainly because my legs are dead as hell right now. According to Google maps the total distance is 2 miles, which is actually quite farther than I thought it would be. I'm going to try and make this a daily thing, and hopefully in a week or two I'll be running the whole 2 miles. Ha!

International Feel Sorry for Yourself Day

Well it's International Feel Sorry for Yourself Day, and I am. I just got out of bed. I have no energy. When I woke up I felt pretty shitty, so I climbed out of bed, peed, and then returned to the bed where I watched TV all morning and afternoon. Until now. At which point I watched cutewithchris's video about International Feel Sorry for Yourself Day:


What a coincidence.

Internet reminiscence

So I downloaded yahoo messenger tonight, which I haven't used for something like 4 or 5 years. The cool part is I was looking through the old screen names and so many memories were coming back. Whats weird is most of them are girls. I don't really talk to girls. Come to think of it I don't talk to anyone really.
One person in particular stands out. I just remember talking with him fairly often. We talked about smoking weed, and sex stuff. He always tried to get me to come over and have a threesome with him and his girlfriend. I never did it. It kind of weirded me out; I didn't feel like I could trust him. Like maybe he didn't really have a girl over there. Or maybe they just wanted to prey on someone.
So I searched his screen name today and found his myspace. I matched a picture in his album up with the one from his yahoo profile, to make sure it was him. He definitely has a girlfriend and she is good looking too. But this was probably 6 years ago.
Ever wonder how different your life may have turned out if you made some decision differently in the past? I would be a totally different person if I had gone to see him. No matter what happened. Maybe we'd all have sex and have a jolly good time (it would have been my first time). Or maybe they would have tied me up in the basement and kept me there for weeks. I'd bet against that one. But if I had it all to do again, I'd probably do the same thing. Thats just me.

Shopping cart escalator?!?

I just discovered this totally awesome thing called a shopping cart escalator.

Shopping Cart Escalator - Amazing videos are here

The Shrine of Relaxation

So I put up the new blog last night, you can view it at this address:
The Shrine of Relaxation
It's going to be all about relaxing images, videos, stories and anything else to help with that. It's still totally a work in progress, and the whole site will probably look different when I'm done.
Now one of the reasons I wanted to create a second, more focused blog was so I could make some money from ad revenue. Well, I'm not about to put ads on a page devoted to relaxation. Of course, Murphy's law strikes again.
In other news you couldn't care less about, I woke up feeling the worst I ever have this morning. My head just felt totally fuzzed out. I kind of felt like I couldn't breathe. I dunno what the hell is going on, but I really wish I had health insurance so I could go see an allergist. I don't even feel like eating.

Another idea!

Ok. I've got another idea. I'm going with this one. I just need a good name.
I think this one is a keeper.

Just relax...

I was feeling kind of anxious and wound up until I found this quite relaxing and enjoyable video on youtube of a girl dancing ballet or ballet-like. She disabled embedding so I can't post it, but here's the link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-iJgdyzqavY
You could also check out her myspace page.
I haven't worked on that new blog idea I had yesterday at all. The more I thought about it the less I liked it. That happens with pretty much all my ideas. I always find something about it that makes it so the whole thing fails. I justify it by thinking that when I find the thing I can't find anything wrong with, it'll be "the one." Sigh. It'll never happen, will it?

Another day, another dungeon

That's actually the title of one of my favorite books when I was young. I feel like I should read it again.
Anyhow I wasted most of the day away playing WoW again. I got a few internet/computer things done beforehand though, so it wasn't totally wasted. On the plus side I may have just come up with a good idea for another blog while I was in the shower. I might post something like a promo just to feel it out. I don't know if I'll finish it tonight because it's really quite late. This is the latest I've been up since before I left for California.
I want to say a few things about the players in WoW. There are WAY TOO MANY stupid people there. I don't know why you have tell an inexperienced player how something is supposed to be done 100 times before they finally get it. Sometimes these things are totally common sense, simple things to do. It really makes me wonder how these people survive in real life. I know, some of them are kids. But A LOT of them are not kids. A lot of them are college students. Worse yet some of them have actually survived long enough to get a job, start a family and crank out a few kids who can learn how to be stupid online just like their parents.
I spent something like 2 minutes trying to help this idiot navigate around a bookcase that was too tall to jump onto. I said,
"You have to jump on the table first, then onto the bookcase." So what did he do? He kept trying to jump directly onto the bookcase. So I told him again. And again. AND AGAIN! FUCK! I just wanted to rip my eyeballs out so I would never have to see it again.
Great, I've thought about it too much. Now I'm going to have nightmares where I'm surrounded by idiots trying put food into their nose holes...

Three cheers for laziness

I decided to just embrace my inability to do anything productive, at least for today. I got back into WoW for a few hours, and enjoyed myself thoroughly. I think I really needed that.
Tomorrow is another day and another chance to get some work done.
By the way, photos from the trip have been posted on flickr, here's the link:
California Trip 2008

Sunsweet update

I just got off the phone with the lady from the FDA. She took a full report of all the info I had about the raisins and it sounds like she is starting some kind of investigation. Exciting! Anyhow we'll see if anything comes of it.

Here we go again

Well I woke up this morning feeling the worst I have in a long time. I'm having the same old allergy symptoms I always did when sleeping in this bed; Sore, dry throat, stuffy nose, fuzzy head. I'm sick of it.
Also when I got out of the shower last night I didn't get a damn thing done. I talked on the phone all night until I went to bed.
Today I MUST accomplish something.

Too many mind

I badly need to center and focus myself. My thoughts are going off in a million directions, exploring so many vitally different routes I could take to get something meaningful accomplished, and not settling on any one thing long enough to grab hold and make it concrete.
I'm going to shit, shower and brush my teeth and when I come out and sit down at this desk I'm going to calm my mind, bring myself in and get something done.

Blah

I woke up feeling pretty much the same as I did on the floor bed, but not as bad as I did previously when sleeping on my bed. Regardless it was disappointing because I really expected to wake up feeling better than normal. I'm going to stick with it and hopefully it will improve with time.
I found myself totally unmotivated again today. I studied a little C#; Maybe an hours worth. Other than that I did nothing productive. I've been watching videos all day and playing with blog stuff. Thinking about things. New blog ideas. I have kind of given up on my previous new blog idea. It's still on the back burner, but I'm not gonna go anywhere with it right now. I'm thinking I might go with a fiction blog of some kind. We'll see.
Anyhow I found this really cool site which apparently a lot of people already know about, but I didn't. It's called freakingnews.com and it's a site that hosts news related photoshopped image contests. There's some really hilarious stuff on there, check out Partial Face Transplants for a good sample.

The end of the floor bed

Today I completed numbers 3, 5 and 7 from yesterday's post; First, I got a new cpu fan at this cool computer parts store I found. This place was like the stores I've seen in California, and always wanted to find in St. Louis. It's kind of like a resting place for old computer hardware, software and electronic equipment with nowhere else to go. They've got everything from oscilliscopes to network switches to 4 foot printers to games from the 90's, and all at a pretty good price. As far as I can tell this is the only store like this left in St. Louis. You can check out their website here.
I also figured out yahoo sitebuilder for a friend, and also posted the vacation pictures. Exciting!
Also today I took steps towards fixing my sleep problem. I went to a mattress store and bought a dust mite cover for my bed. I then removed all the sheets and pillowcases and washed them. I also removed the futon cover and washed it. Boy was putting that back on a pain in the ass. This thing completely surrounds the bed, the mattress is heavy, the bed is in a corner so 2 sides are difficult to get to, there isn't enough room in here to pull it down onto the floor, and being a futon mattress, it's all floppy so I couldn't just stand it up. Whew... I also vacuumed the surface of the mattress itself and the floor surrounding the bed. Tonight will be the test, and if I wake up all stuffed up and dizzy tomorrow morning who the hell knows what's causing it.
Also, I started using Feedburner, so welcome to any new folks that result from its use, and enjoy!

There's something wrong with Sunsweet and their raisins...

A month or two ago I purchased some Sunsweet Jumbo Red Raisins (this was not the first time) in an 8 oz package. I got the package, took out a handful, and slammed the whole thing. As I chewed I realized they tasted horribly like pesticide or poison or some other nasty chemical. I mean it was really really strong. I spit them out and rinsed my mouth a dozen times to try and get the taste out. I smelled the bag and... Ugh. I'm nauseous just thinking about it. I recorded the info stamped on the bag and returned them to the store for a refund. Well this week I tried them again, and I could smell that same smell inside the bag. I very lightly placed on raisin in my mouth and it was the same as before. So yesterday I wrote an email to Sunsweet detailing what had happened, along with the stamped info from both packages. Today they responded with this:

"Thank you for your email regarding your disappointing experience with Sunsweet Raisins.

Our goal at Sunsweet is to maintain the highest quality standards in our products and our packaging. State-of-the-art processing equipment, strict quality controls, continual quality checks and a dedicated work force strive to ensure that only the best premium Raisins are delivered to our consumers.

So that we can send you replacement coupons, please email or contact our Consumer Relations Department, by email or toll free, at 1-800-417-2253 with your mailing address. Our representatives are available to assist you weekdays between 9:00 a.m. and 6:00 p.m. Eastern Time.

Thank you for your comments."

I was so pissed. What the fuck is this bullshit? Its a god damn form letter! I wonder if they even actually read the email. Plus, it wasn't just disappointing, it was totally and completely unacceptable on a massive scale. Who knows how many people have bought these raisins? I mean what if a kid eats a whole handful and dies from it? All they are concerned about is sending me "replacement coupons." Fuckers.
So I called Missouri's FDA branch today and left a message. With any luck they'll call me back tomorrow and I'll give them all the necessary info. If anyone has had the same experience, or any similar experience with another food or drug product, please contact the proper authorities.

Julia Nunes on Uketube

I wanted to bring to everyone's attention a performer known as Julia Nunes. She is this totally awesome ukelele and guitar player from youtube. It's hard to put it into words, but her videos affect me like no musician I have ever heard before. She is also very attractive and likeable as a person, which just makes her a joy to watch. She's definitely my favorite subscription on youtube.
Check out her youtube page.
Also go to her eventful.com page and request a Julia Nunes event in your area!
You should also visit her website.
This is one of my favs called "Regrets":

Masturbatory? Motivatory?

A greeter at Walmart should say "Hello. Welcome to Walmart." Or whatever the fuck they're programmed to do. But this guy didn't. This guy was "handicapped" - he was in a powered scooter, probably about 25-30 years old. One eye was crooked. As I walked in I thought he was looking at me, but he was just staring straight ahead. I was going to say hello. Passing him I realized he was busy with other tasks. I realized that his hand was completely inside his pants, scratching and/or massaging his crotch. I don't care what the rules are, this guy should be fucking fired on the spot. It's almost as bad as if you hired a guy with cursing tourette's syndrome to work in any customer service position. I mean this guy might not have even been capable of saying anything at all. I'd fire him on the spot if I saw him with his hand in his pants. I thought it was fucking funny. I laughed. Out loud. I called people and told them. It was a grand ole time.
Moving on, I'm feeling wholly unmotivated today. I planned to start on the new blog - get the intro article written, maybe finalize a name, and at least get some content down on paper, but I haven't. I haven't done shit. I've done nothing but sit around all day watching youtube videos. I was gonna go to the store and get some exercise clothes and start running. I didn't do that either. I don't know what happened but as soon as I woke up this morning I lost all desire to do anything productive. I'm hoping writing this might inspire me to start.
Maybe I'll make a list of things to do... In no particular order:
1. Write new blog articles
2. Get exercise clothes
3. Figure out yahoo sitebuilder for a friend
4. Work on another friend's website
5. Post vacation pictures
6. Come up with name for new blog
7. Get new cpu fan for computer
Yeah. Let's get started.

Thank you Pell, whoever you are!

So I'm home. The flights sucked, as always, but both were early and everything went smoothly.
I arrived home to find a letter from my school about my financial aid application. It said my Pell grant is enough to cover DOUBLE the tuition fees, so I'm getting over $700 as a refund plus my school is fully paid for this semester. I cannot tell you how excited I am! The past 10 days have really been the best days I've had in a long long time, and it seems like it just keeps getting better.
I'll be posting trip pictures and stuff tomorrow. For now, I'm pretty tired and kinda dizzy from the flight, so it's bed time.

1 hour til departure

So I'm hanging out in the airport here, waiting to board, and thought I would make another post. The airport is pretty dead; I literally had 2 people ahead of me when I entered security. Also my gate is the first gate inside the terminal and I have a bathroom right next to it. All signs say my flight is on time. I have one stop in Dallas which is the only bad thing about this trip. I don't really like flying and I didn't realize I had already deleted the music off my phone before I left home, so I have nothing to keep me occupied. I can't read or write during the flight because it makes me sick.
I think they should be able to offer Xanax for purchase at the gate or before the flight takes off. Or maybe even before security. I think it would make the whole experience much more tolerable.

Home, home again

So tonight is my last night here. It was a great trip. I had a really good time and took lots of pictures (I'll be posting some here and lots probably on flickr). I ate lots of good food: Thai, japanese, mexican and more. I did a lot of fun things: Butter and eggs day parade, Giants game, visited with many friends, had a "puppy party" and more. It was an action packed, fun filled, excitement extravaganza!
During the trip I came up with a few ideas for the new blog title, as well as some more ideas for articles. I also spent a little time working on some software ideas that hopefully will come to fruition fairly soon. I have three weeks until school starts and lots of stuff to accomplish during that time, so I'm going to get started as soon as possible on Sunday. For now, sleep!

Another loss for the Giants

We went to a Giants game tonight, and they lost. But its ok, cause I had garlic fries with my dad and an entertaining night. The guys sitting behind us were fairly boisterous, making a number of funny comments including "Hey Blue, get on your knees 'cause you're blowing the game!" Also some guy one section over wanted to start a fight with a large portion of or section, unfortunately nothing ever happened. Also there was quite a selection of great looking women, along with at least three that particularly stood out to me, providing eye candy anytime one walked the aisle to and from her seat, because our seats were right on the isle. The only negative is it was FUCKING COLD. I mean my legs were going numb by the end, cold. So anyhow it was fun, and I'm tired.

Butter and Eggs for everyone!

So the weather is beautiful here, sunny and high of probably mid 80s today. We went to the Butter and Eggs festival in Petaluma today, whose theme this year is Petaluma's 150th birthday. Started with breakfast, and then onto the cow chip throwing contest (we just spectated). At least one person was hit with flying poo. It was awesome. Then the kid's and normal parardes, which together took about 2 hours to complete. If any of the shots I took are any good I'll post them when I get home, but I had these poles in my way. All in all it was pretty fun and I got some color to my face now. All the sun actually drained me pretty well so I'm crashing.



See the rest of the parade and trip pictures here.

Right back where I started from.

Sort of. I was born in San Fransisco but I'm actually about 2 hours north.
I've been fighting with getting this to work so it better this time of I'm going to be pissed. Why can't someone make a decent mobile browser that's FREE, like regular browsers, that can read webpages normally. I don't understand why its so hard. And I don't care if it's slow, as long as it works. Minimo by Mozilla is hella slow, and it seems to almost work, but crashing seems to be inevitable. As far as IE, well you can forget it; it can't read any fancy pages. I guess it's no porn for me tonight!
(originally attempted to post 12:01 am 04/26/08)

EDIT 05/09/2008: I (intentionally) slept on a floor bed there too; here's a shot of it...

I just can't resist.

Ok one last post before I leave for the airport. I got a referrer to one of my flickr photos from this website
http://www.airtightinteractive.com/projects/related_tag_browser/app/
It's a flickr related tags browser, and is pretty cool, everyone should check it out.
Check out the main page too while you're at it, some other neat stuff there and a blog etc.

Leavin' on a jet plane

This will likely be the last post before I leave. During the trip I'll probably only post using email on my phone. We'll see how that works out.
My previous post needs an explanation. Ever since 911 happened me and my friends have been seeing the numbers 911 everywhere. It used to happen all the time, sometimes multiple times a day, but now it's not quite as often. We don't seek this out, either. What I mean is I'll look at the clock to see what time it is, and it'll be 9:11. Not thinking about, not even considering it. This has been happening nearly every day for almost 7 years. Anyhow when it happens I always think "Fuck it's 911" or I'll call my friend and say "It's 911!" Maybe I'll document each time it happens here, and we'll see how many times it really does. Or, if I do that will the terrorists win?

And it's 9:11...

sigh...

Time to pack!

Well my laundry is in the dryer, bills are paid and everything is set for my trip. I'm gonna post the list of stuff I'm going to take with me right here, so I can use it to pack:

0.85oz toothpaste in ziploc, toothbrush, hairbrush
3 pairs pants, 2 pairs shorts, 6 pairs boxers, 5 pairs socks, 1 pair pajamas, 1 Ween hat, 1 pair sandals, 1 pair tennis shoes, 1 belt
1 digital camera and charger, 1 video camera and charger, 1 cell phone charger, 1 hands-free device/earbuds, 1 usb cable (just in case)
And in my pockets go keys, wallet, stylus and cell phone.

I might be overdoing it, but so what. I hope I didn't forget anything important...
I don't take deodorant anymore because the last two times it oozed out of the container and got all nasty.
Oh and btw, I was wrong about the earthquake according to the USGS, turns out I am just crazy.

Another earthquake?

I'm not certain but I may have just experienced another very small earthquake. I may also be crazy.

And now for the name

I've got my topic narrowed down for the new blog (it actually did come to me before sleep), but now I'm having trouble with the name. I want to come up with something good, something catchy, or at least clever. I've gone through about 15 names so far that haven't been satisfactory. Maybe that'll come to me as I drift off too.
As far as content goes I've got at least 3 good ideas for articles floating around in my head, probably not gonna start writing them until I get back from California.
For some reason this name thing is really bothering me. Sigh...
In other news, yet another fan inside my computer is going out. The video card and main case fan have both been replaced already, now the cpu fan is making all this noise. I guess I'll have to turn the computer off before I leave and replace it when I get back.
Last time I came back from a trip and turned the computer back on it wouldn't boot 3 times in a row. It told me it didn't have enough power for the video card. I guess it missed me and was just having trouble showing its emotions...

The search for the right topic

I think I'm going to start another blog that focuses on a specific topic; one that isn't just personal, and keep this one for all the personal stuff. I'm trying to come up with something good, because if I can get visitors to come to my site I can make money with ads. And the more focused it is the more likely companies will WANT to advertise on my blog, and then the more I will get paid. I'm also gonna need more exposure probably. I need a topic first. I'm getting ahead of myself :P
I think I might go internet related. I'd really like to come up with something new, but I tend to be terrible at that. Maybe I could review websites and internet related software. Hmm... Maybe it will come to me as I drift off to sleep tonight, like all my other good ideas.

All good things...

I decided earlier today to put an end to the Every time I poop photo-series, at least in it's current form. I may continue to post pictures but it certainly won't be "Every time." With the end of it also comes the end of the blog post naming scheme. Gonna keep the name and logo though, I kinda like em.
I leave for California on thursday. I'll be gone until the following sunday. I'll attempt to post here while I'm gone, and I'll definitely take lots of pictures. Gonna shave before I go anywhere, my trichtillomania has claimed a large portion of my beard this evening.
Started learning C# today. So far it's nearly exactly the same as C++, but I'm only 2 chapters into the book. Could have gone through chapter 3 at least but couldn't focus after dinner. I felt pretty weird and I'm not sure what was going on there.
On the whole I feel better today though. No pressure while pooping is nice.

...I lose inspiration.

I'm running out of ideas for the "Every time I poop" photo-series. I might call it quits on that one and come up with some other project.

...I think too much.

There's just too much going around in my head to get it all out. I might not got anything put down here. But here goes...
I was thinking about unconditional love yesterday. What about if someone does something really horrible? For example, in The Sixth Sense, when the daughter is slowly poisoned to death by her mother. What if the father had discovered what was going on, stopped the mother, and the daughter ended up surviving? Should she forgive the mother, and tell her "Mom. I still love you."? NO. FUCK THAT. The mother should fucking rot in hell for doing that to her daughter. I mean that's some sick, twisted shit to do to another person. I mean what the fuck is going through her mind when she's pouring rat poison into her daughter's soup every day. Does she feel trapped somehow by her? I mean what the fuck could cause someone to do that kind of shit?
You know what else? I'm sick and tired of hearing the fucking word "fabulous." This dress is fabulous. Did you see that movie????? OMG, it was FABULOUS. FUCK! If I hear one more person use that word to describe ANYTHING I'm gonna gouge their eyes out with a hot blowtorch nozzle. You know whats fabulous? When I blow hot diarrhea on your face straight from my asshole.
Ok. I'm a bit better now.
Moving on, I feel a little better today, but I still feel exhausted. This is what I looked like this morning:

I'm not hungover or anything. Just feeling like shit. Despite that, I think I'm sleeping decently on the floor bed.

...I need to rest.

I feel physically and mentally shitty today. I'm not up to working on the photo-series, and I'm one bowel movement behind (from yesterday. Luckily I haven't pooped yet today). I'm just feeling totally spent. I feel like I need to sleep and/or veg out for 10 days to recover. I'm not sure if I was just going totally manic on this blog and the photos for the past few days and crashed, or maybe the fear of 3 or 4 hardcore years of school is getting to me. I dunno. Sigh. Now I have to poop...


Took this after posting

...YOU go on a diet.

I'm getting sick and tired of all these diet fads. Little ways to cheat and get away without doing what really needs to be done. Low carb, Atkins, no carb, low fat, no fat, low protein, high protein, less protein, less twinkies, sigh... I'm so sick of it in fact that I'm going to jump on the bandwagon; and I'm going to do it for free. Let me introduce to you the Every Time I Poop Diet. It's quite simple really, and I'm going to explain it from the ground up.
You can measure the energy your body uses and consumes in calories. Every substance in and out of your body that can be burned for energy contains calories. The secret to my diet is this: In any capacity you want, eat less calories than you need. That's it. I don't care how you do it, and neither do you. You could eat half as much (insert word here): Carbs, fat, hot dogs, coffee, sugar, spice, everything nice. Or you could use more calories. That means exercise. Get off your butt and go for a jog, a ride, a skate, or have lots of sex every day. In a month you'll feel better AND you'll lose weight. But, here's the ultimate solution: Combine both methods. Diet AND exercise. You can always find the truth in the fine print of commercials. So in 6 months when you've lost 100 pounds, you're feeling great, you're looking great, and someone asks you "Wow Marge, you look amazing! What diet are you on" just tell them "Every Time I Poop" and enjoy the confusion!

...the ground shakes!

I just woke up to an earthquake rocking me on my floor bed. Not hard, but enough to wake me up. It was kinda scary; I haven't been in an earthquake I can remember.
The cats are all freaked out. Walking around hair all puffed and stuff.
Looks like the quake's center was located about 128 miles from here near the Illinois/Indiana border.

...a new door is opened.

I'm now 3 photos into my "Every time I poop..." photo-series on flickr, and I'm fairly happy with how its going. I need to get more people to my photos, though; start posting them to more groups or something. I also need to broaden my subject matter. Besides the photo-series it's mainly limited to my cats. Sigh...
I slept in the makeshift bed last night and got a terrible nights sleep. I guess my 2 nights back in the real bed corrupted my tolerance for the hardness of the floor. Hopefully tonight will be better. On the plus side I wasn't nearly as fuzzy this morning. One more night of positive results and its goodbye mattress.
I've almost fully completed sign-up for the summer school semester. This will be my first year in college since 2002. I'm basically a 2nd semester freshman. Heh. My plan is to take as many classes as possible at community college (to save as much money as possible) and then transfer to a university. There I will attain my bachelor's in computer science, and get a real job making some decent money. I'm actually quite nervous/scared about it. But it looks like I have a lot to look forward to. :)

...I get uncomfortable.

I've been waking up with intense sinus-blockage, itchy, burning eyes and a fuzzy head for nearly a year now. It has gotten progressively worse during that time. I suspect some type of allergen that is living (but not necessarily alive) in my mattress, which is a futon matress, so its like a big pillow. A haven for stuff like dust mites, and for collecting things that fall off of me and the cats. As an experiment to see if the mattress itself is responsible for my stuffiness, I set up this makeshift bed on the floor...

This "mattress" consists of 3 half-folded blankets and a sleeping bag. Its quite uncomfortable compared to the real bed, but it'll do. Also my head has to be by the door, because the door is opposite the bed in my room, and to ensure a fair experiment, I have to keep my head away from my real mattress. As a result of this and having my head on the floor, I hear EVERYTHING that happens in the house. So I'm awakened constantly by cats running and jumping and clawing and pooping and DRIVING ME CRAZY!
So I slept on the makeshift bed for about a week. I noticed a fairly significant reduction in the head fuzziness, which was the most bothersome symptom, and also in the runny nose and burning eyes, but it wasn't enough (for me) for a conclusive result yet. To compare, the last 2 nights I have slept in the real bed, and have woken up feeling so much worse. Tonight I am switching back to the floor bed and will likely not return to my real bed until I can replace the mattress.
In other news, I started a new photo-series on flickr (this blog's namesake) to work on my creativity and exercise my brain in a way I normally don't. There's only one photo so far but, check it out, tell me what you think

...I get a new blog!

Welcome to my blog. Its name comes from my flickr photo-series of the same name, in which I take a photo every time I poop and post it (link in the links section). This blog isn't really related in terms of content. Enjoy.